Learn to Love Your Life

As in Francesca Battiselli sings, "It's your life, whatcha gonna do, the world is watching you. Every day, the choices you make, say who you are and what your heart beats for, its an open door"

If you don't like the way your life is, you need to figure out how you can be happy with YOURSELF, because happiness isn't measured in items/possessions. At the end of the day, that is all just STUFF.

I can honestly say, if I got rid of absolutely everything, except for a few changes of clothes, and my phone, I would still be as happy as I am, if not happier. I have the best family, friends and boyfriend any woman could ever ask for.

I love being secure in my relationship with God, and with Justin. I see so many girls my age just hurting, and settling and being screwed over by every guy they attempt to be with. It breaks my heart to see people I care about hurting. But at the same time, I feel like if you are having issues in your relationships a few weeks into dating, that's an issue. If you can't be yourself after being together for a while, that's an issue. And maybe you should take a look at yourself and the person you're with. it may either be the wrong kind of guy, or you might need to find confidence and security in yourself.

I am not just saying this because I think I am better for you, or to call anyone out.. I am saying this, because I have been that girl.. the girl who rested happiness, security, and everything I had on others, and on materialistic things. The girl to try EVERYTHING to make it work with the douchebag guy who was never any good for me in the first place. It may seem like a hard habit to break, but douchebags are a dime in a dozen. Set standards. Know what you WANT and what you NEED.. and NEVER SETTLE FOR GOOD ENOUGH.. because good enough then, always leads to disappointment in the end. Try being best friends with someone first, you would be absolutely surprised how much better those relationships actually turn out to be most of the time. And never forget that God should be a first priority.

Revelations

I have realized that my heart has become more heavy for the world and people of this world. So much that it has taken a hold of my heart, and makes me feel like crying at times. Other times, I find myself hardening my heart.. which is not good. Luckily I know a God that reminds me to love all people, at all times, no matter what.

"Put on then, as God's chosen ones, holy and beloved, compassion, kindness, humility, meekness, and patience, bearing with another and, if one has a complaint against another, forgiving each other, as the Lord has forgiven you, so you must forgive. And above all these put on love, which binds everything together in perfect harmony. And let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, to which indeed you were called in one body. And be thankful." Colossians 3:12-15

Yesterday, I saw a young man get hit by a hummer while crossing a busy intersection. I had no idea what happened, I was just in shock. Then I remembered, I have a God who knows all and can do the impossible. So as I continued my journey to Seattle, I prayed the ENTIRE ride for this man. I wake up today to find out that it is someone I actually know. He is currently at Harborview, and going through some surgeries. But, it could have been SOOO much worse. So for that, we can be thankful.

Also, I have issues lately holding my tongue and losing patience with people. I read a bible verse tonight that definitely reminded me that I need to watch myself.

"But now you must put them all away: anger, wrath, malice, slander, and obscene talk from your mouth. Do not lie to one another, seeing that you have put off the old self with its practices and have put on the new self, which is being renewed in knowledge after the image of its creator." Colossians 3:8-10

I recently told off a good friend,in which she got mad and told me off. We both said really hurtful things, that it is too late to take back. God calls me to love people in all circumstances, and that is something I slip out of my mind. Another thing I have a hard time doing, is apologizing. God is working on me with that too.. I have yet to speak to this friend, but it looks like I know what I have to do...

God's Movement

So I gotta say, it is INCREDIBLE having a significant other who is SO encouraging in Jesus.

I have been SUPER stressed out with finances since my hours have been cut at work and such, and I had pretty much come to my breaking point, where I almost had a break down. Then my wonderful boyfriend sent me this message on Facebook. "hey baby i know your going through a rough time with your finances but tonight's journal is just what you need. Romans 5: Therefore, having been justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom also we have access by faith to his grace in which we stand, and rejoice in hope of the glory of God. And not only that, but we also glory in tribulations, knowing that tribulation produces perseverance; and persevereance,character; and character, hope. Now hope does not disappoint, because the love of God has been poured out in our hearts by the Holy spirit who was given to us."

He could have easily said "Make sure you read it" and left it up to me. He took the time out to encourage me and just simply remind me to trust in God. And when I took a step back, and gave it to God, I was blessed with a larger than expected paycheck, and so I was able to make some payments on some stuff so I would stop being hassled. Also, God has blessed me with more hours at work as well. I believe I have 14 hours this week alone, which is usually a whole 2 week paycheck for me.

It just goes to show, that when you live by faith, God will bless your life.

I believe God is preparing our hearts for a radical movement. I see young people walking the walk and talking the talk. Fully seeking Jesus, FOR THEMSELVES. They do not wait around for some guy on a stage to TELL them what the bible says. God is speaking to the hearts of those who trust Him and seek Him.

He is ALWAYS faithful and He is ALWAYS good. :)